I am...

I am...

I am, who am I actually?
I read about the "I am" contest and it got me thinking; Who am I? There are multiple ways to describe a person, Jung would describe me as an INTJ, but why put me in a category? Why not just let me be me?

I am a daughter, I am a friend, I am a person, I am me.
This does not tell you much about me, but all I can say is that I am me, myself and I. I am unusual and an outsider, but I don't mind, I prefer it. Why stick with the norm? I think differently to other people, because I am different to other people, because no one is exactly the same, that would be impossible.

What can I say do about myself?
I can say that I do not like showing my true emotions and, although I say so myself, am good at hiding them. I like reading, the internet, cars, Formula 1, watching tv series and films, e.g. Veronica Mars and Endeavour and I like writing. I don't have a lot of time for writing, especially with now a test week coming up, but I am trying to continue a book I am writing at the moment. The book has not got a name yet, but some teasers (which don't give anything away) can be found in my gallery.
I used to play tennis almost every week, but ever since I got diagnosed, I haven't been doing that anymore. I can not participate in PHE at school for the same reason, but this does not bother me much, I can still get involved in the lessons by helping the teacher.
At the moment I am fifteen years of age and getting older every day. I am participating in a bilingual, gymnasium, education at a school which is situated about eight kilometres (or five miles) from my house and I am enjoying it immensely, but of course I enjoy writing more.
My ambitions are to finish my book, get my diploma and go to a good university reading a study I love, hopefully in English. My father is British and my mother is Dutch, I was brought up with both languages and have only had benefited by it. So for all the Dutch people reading this: hopelijk kunnen jullie alles verstaan (hopefully you can understand everything).
Next year I will (if I make this year, I have missed so much, because I have been ill an awful lot) be dropping some subjects. So no more History lessons for me, help! I love history, but for my career choices, it was better to choose physics and I really wanted to do art and the school won't let me do all three.
I love eating (well, eating foods that I like), I am a vegetarian (so are my parents) and only sometimes eat fish. My favourite dish is my mother’s "Turkish pizza". In the nearby city there is a Turkish deli (with a fabulous restaurant) where they sell turkish bread and all sorts of spreads and other food. My mother cuts the (flat, round) bread in half, so you have a pizza-like shape, she puts the different spreads she bought on it together with peppers, tomatoes, cheese, olives and sometimes rucola or so. It is so delicious!
What everyone should also try is rice cakes with thin slices of honey cake/gingerbread (in Dutch ontbijtkoek or peperkoek) on top of it. I know it sounds weird, but it is truly tasty.

Now you know some thing about me, but you still don't know who I am. In my opinion it is difficult to tell people who you really are. My questions to you is, do you really know who you are? What would you do during a natural disaster? When terrorist attack? I like to think I would stay calm, as ever, but honestly I do not know. I have never encountered such situations and I will never know how I will exactly react until I have.

I can tell you I am an outsider and get perceived as an outsider. I can tell you I am mentally strong and am seen as a mentally strong person. People who know me the best will know I do not like showing my true emotions and that I will hide them in almost every case. The last time I can remember that I cried (pain, etc. does not count, this is mental not physical) was when I heard my grandmother (Dutch side) was going to die. I was seven years old. I quite easily get stressed and can sometimes be very unsure about things (like a time or place I have to be somewhere), but these things are always solved when I see someone I know. I am not scared of people, but prefer being in a small group than a bit one. I do not have a lot of friends (those people hopefully know who they are), but neither strive to have a lot of them. Apart from my parent, there is not really one person who I would trust in almost every situation.

So, this is the cruel truth of who I am; me, myself and I. I can't change much about it and I don't like everything, but I can not say I am a bad person. I will be there for people, although they won't always be there for me and I won't stop mostly not caring what other people think. There will always be more to know, and I won't share everything, but feel free to ask me anything and I'll assure you you will get an answer, most of the time even a good one.

Good luck